The person in the woman

I am truly empowered in the knowledge of self!

Most of the times we hide behind our smiles for it is difficult telling everyone what you feel . As a result of this mindless fear of being rejected in thought and in feeling, we act as others wish of us. We stop being ourselves and lose our identity. I find it revolting and even to some measure stifling. I want to unchain myself from this hurtful garb of being someone else .I want to change into my own skin ,and be who i am. Not to say that i very well know myself . I just got introduced to myself and wow!!! To be yourself should be a release of a kind, to get into your own, so as to say! After years of knowing the synthetic me ,I treasure my new self., layered with dust and grime. I need to clean up . It is as though i was passing a doorway of a world where logic and self esteem take a back seat, i have just crossed the door and have stepped into a new light . i have a new agenda of living with myself , loving myself and exploring my current reality . i also want to dive deep into this realisation and integrate my experiences whether someone understands them or not . In stead of shadow boxing with my fears nurtured over the years , i stand face to face with them and what a delight to see them just melt away !. I am not even thinking about what i did not do and what i could not finish , rather positive feelings seem to bubble from within. Is this aging? an empty nest syndrome? menopausing demons hovering ? wounded self esteem or the gnawing reality of futility in love and living? i don’t know but i can see further into the distance and down on the universe . I must resolve to move on ,fixing my attention on the distance and pushing steadily in that direction.